Thesis Defense

Hello guys, it's been a long time since my last post. Well I was so busy with my thesis aka final project last semester. Aaaand now *drumroll* I'M OFFICIALLY A BACHELOR OF AGRICULTURAL TECHNOLOGY aka S.TP! Yeay hahahahaha I can't believe I am able to make it in just 3 and half years. During my early times in college, I always dreamed of finishing my study just on time, which is 4 years. But then, suddenly I got a chance to do the final project in my 7th semester and I decided to take that chance. It was a sudden decision anyway.

The past 4 months was definetely the toughest moments in my life. Besides doing research in the laboratory, I took 4 classes, 10 credits in total. I couldn't spend the whole day in the lab from Monday to Thursday due to those classes. And I couldn't pay full attention to my research due to the projects, assignments, and quizzes from the classes. And not to mention, my research did not run smoothly. There were so many obstacles in my research, like the mistakes and failures in the analysis which made me to repeat the analysis, changes in my experimental design, and so on. I was so devastated and desperated at that time. But thankfully I've got amazing family and bestfriends that kept on supporting and cheering me up when I was at the lowest point. And after all those struggles, I could submit my thesis report in December 19!

In the mid January, the anouncement of the dates for thesis defense came out. And surprisingly, my thesis defense was quite early. It was on January 26th and it was on the second week. I was quite surprised since I expected my thesis defense would be held in the last week. After the announcement came out, I started to get myself prepared for the defense. But as the D-Day came near, I suddenly got into mental breakdown. I got stressed, suddenly I found a lot of mistakes in my report. I was scared to be unable to answer the questions from the examiners. I was scared to be unable to make it through. During my devastation, I talked to God. I asked God to guide me, to hold my hand and stand by my side during my thesis defense so that I can have the strength to face the judges. I also asked God to ease the fear in me, so that I can think clearly during the defense and able to answer the questions from the judges well.

Before the defense started, I still got so nervous. One of my senior came into the room where my thesis defense was held and we talked for some while but I couldn't even think clearly at that moment. I was so tensed that I couldn't even remember what I talked about with him. But miraculously, when the examiners came and asked me to start the presentation, I got a sudden boost of strength. I didn't feel nervous at all when I presented my thesis report and I could speak clearly without stuttering. During the question and answer, yes I was a little bit nervous but I still could think clearly. There was some questions that I was unable to answer but I guess it's okay? After the Q&A session they asked me to go out and my friends had waited outside. I waited outside for like.... 20 minutes? I started to get nervous again, why did they take so long to discuss my fate? Then I was called to go back into the room. I was so delighted when they announced "you don't..... need to repeat the defense" and I didn't even need to go back to the laboratory to get another data! I only need to revise some things in my report and submit it in the form of hardcover 2 weeks after the defense.

Now I am still doing my revision (please pray for me so that I can submit it on time!). When I looked back, I was so amazed on the journey I've been through and I realize that I've grown a lot during these 6 months. I know that's merely because of God's grace. God has helped me and guided me a lot during my research and also my thesis defense. He is just way too amazing!

Well, I still don't know about the result yet. Probably I'll know the result of my thesis after I submit my hardcover. I've got no idea about my result since I don't know what the judges think about my thesis and my defense but I've given my best shot to finish the last part of my study here. I hope all of my hard work will be worth it in the end *fingercross*

That's all from me now, see you on the next post!